User blog:Ninjaman165/Ubel's Journal Entry 1

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''I see her there, standing in my thoughts, my dreams, and my subconscious. When I see her in person, my heart tells me to go for it, but something inside of me always resists. My mind tells me to let it go, and to stay away. How could someone like her ever fall for someone like me? To most, my kind are monsters, agents of absolute choas and destruction; she would never allow for herself to feel vulnerable around a being like that, right? And yet, my heart always counters with the prospect of: none of that matters. "If these feelings that you experience whenever I'm around this girl are truly genuine, then you should at least try. What does it matter if most see you and your siblings as monsters? You yourself know that isn't true, and she knows that it isn't, either." It says. I want to tell her how I really feel, and it always kills me a little more whenever I don't. But how would I even go about it? What would I say? What would she say? How would she feel? It's so frustrating; why can't I just open up and feel the tiniest bit vulnerable myself?! ''

''This girl, she's... She's one of a kind, really. No one else had ever put aside any judgement and stereotypes aside before, and just saw me as... A person. The kindness and compassion that she's shown myself and my siblings is unlike anything I've ever seen before. She accepted them for who they were, and she accepted me for who I was. How could a ninja ever fall for a human? Well, take a long look at me. That's how. Even her name clouds my judgement, and dominates my thoughts, and yet... I don't mind it. "Molly". I get a tingly feeling deep within my gut, and I like it. Whenever she's around, my hands turn clammy, my heart beats faster, and my eyes glow bright. That strong and everlasting feeling of affection for someone... What word does that describe, exactly? It's the same kind of feeling that I have for my siblings, but different at the same time.''

''I have to tell her how I really feel. She needs to know that I...I love her.''

~Ubel~